The Circulatim trilogy
The Circulatim:Arcs series
A 333,000 word novel : Two weeks in the life of Alex as he turns sixteen, discovering life, love, loss, death, and recovery.
Alex is turning sixteen, and going to high school is difficult enough without
it being one of Chicago's most affluent and prestigious schools. And being one
of the 'lessers' only makes it harder. So do the facts that he's a brainy dork
and he's gay.
After losing Toby to illness and death over the previous summer, Alex is unsure and afraid - what's the point of falling in love if it's only going to be taken away by an uncaring God?
His best friend knows that Alex is gay, but none of his other friends do, especially not the one that has now stolen Alex's heart.
And now Toby returns, in a way. Alex isn't sure if he's going insane, or if there is more to life and death than he ever suspected.
A very special gift on his birthday leads him to discover just how much more there really is. That gift leads to events that will change the lives of Alex, his family, and his friends.
They will all learn that death is always near, and that those who have passed on aren't always far away.
A 380,000 word sequel to The Circle.
The next month passes, and it changes Alex's life forever. Things aren't always simple or easy.
Alex recuperates and returns to school. A school that knows that he is gay, and that he had "almost" died in a fire. His very best friend is acting strangely, and keeping secrets from him for the first time. His other best friend is now his lover, but it doesn't fit either of them well. Alex's circle of friends seems to be shrinking, and even his favorite teacher now treated him differently.
Everything was different.
And the nightmares...
Surprising acquaintances vie for his time and lead him into a strange circle of friends, and back into a hobby he had given up. A hobby that raised a ghost from the past only recently laid to rest.
The week of final exams arrives and Alex finds himself barely keeping up with current lessons. Distractions like Erich, and other old friends as well, take up his time, as well as new ones, like Kevin and the gang, and David. And Alex wasn't sure he could do what they expected him to do.
Torn apart from the familiar support of the Circle, moving in a strange circle of new friends, he is stunned to come face to face with an even older ghost than Toby.
How much more could he handle?
Expected summer 2015 ~320,000+ words
Things begin returning to normal for Alex. Or, settling into a new normal.
A new normal that is unlike the old normal. It isn't as comfortable, and things
keep changing, but what choices does he have?
The band is a new circle of friends, and with the twins there, it's becoming comfortable and familiar. But the new element of David makes it a confusing and ever-changing thing, and keeps Alex off his balance and guessing at what he should do. Other new elements only make it more confusing on a daily basis.
His circles of friends at school have changed somewhat, but are now a new normal, and somewhat comfortable. But the new situation with Erich keeps Alex off his balance there, as well. Throw in the unexpected appearance of someone from his past even before Toby who dredges up one of the worst moments of his life, and Alex is at a loss, feeling worried, scared, and even more confused.
But yet another ghost arises from his past, from another, even more complicated and confusing time of his life.
Complications arise nearly daily, in every group of friends he has. School, the band, even his home life.
To make things even more complicated, unanswered questions and concerns from over the past weeks come calling, without resolutions.
Struggling to find himself, or at least, someplace he can be himself, and someone to be that person with, Alex is left in whirlwind of change and chaos.
Is there an answer? Can there be? Can Alex discover it? And will it provide anything like what he thinks he wants, or needs?
The early stories of Alex Raymond.
The earliest years of Alex's life.
We follow Alex from his earliest memories, up through the events of 'what hadn't happened' just before high school, and how he learned that he was gay.
Alex is almost fourteen now, and has moved, leaving his previous
life behind. Now he has to start over. That could be good news, or it could
not. His parents talk him into going to a two-week camp for local high school
students to meet his soon-to-be high school peers. Alex isn't sure it's all
that great an idea, but maybe it offers the opportunity he's looking for. Maybe
he can practice how to get along in the background, unnoticed and left alone.
Maybe he can learn how to hide his homosexuality. Maybe he can learn to survive
high school. He learns far more than he anticipated.
Contains explicit sexual content. Abridged version also available at Smashwords.
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It's the early 1960's, a time when being gay is not acceptable. He's managed
to pretend it's 'just a phase' so far, but when he takes swimming lessons sponsored
by his church group at the high school pool, he meets two older boys who induct
him into a sexual experience that shatters his convictions.
Shocked and confused by the experience, he finds himself unable to deal with it. But the boys who 'found' him are everywhere, and he can't seem to get away from them, or what they awoke in him. And now he has to begin high school: The very high school where his shocking experience occurred.
And worse, he meets another boy, who tempts his budding sexuality like never before.
Contains explicit sexual content making it unavailable at the Amazon Kindle store.
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Every year, I do a Halloween story, usually pretty scary and gory. I was told that even my dark stories were cute and cuddly. For 2014, I went into a much darker place for this one.
WARNING: This is an extremely graphic tale of a
serial child-abductor and molester. No holds barred, no punches pulled. This
novel contains extremely graphic descriptions of homosexual child-child
sexual activity, child abduction, homosexual adult-child sexual
exploitation, torture, and murder. BANNED at Smashwords and the Amazon
It is the story of a child that knows he is different, and the monster he becomes.
When a young boy, he realized his differences early. His intense intelligence allowed him to become adept at manipulating his emotionally distant parents, his naive younger brother, and the few of his peers that he allowed to be his friends. An intelligence uninhibited by guilt or empathy.
During adolescence, he accepted his homosexuality as another aspect of his superiority, like his intelligence and his ability to see the intentions and lies of others. But he didn't take into account his short temper, or his rages.
Soon, he finds himself with blood on his hands, and no remorse. In fact, he found a thrill and power he hadn't expected, or even knew existed. This, and his growing sexuality, leads to more blood, and soon, his life is a series of plans and actions that would horrify his parents, his little brother, and his remaining friends.
As he moves through his teen years, he develops his skills, and feeds his growing appetite for sex, conquest, and power. His fellow students have no idea of the danger they court by teasing the small, weak boy - though some find out, but far too late.
As an adult, he finds he still prefers young boys in his bed, which leads to more plans, and more blood.
Soon, he meets others who share his taste for boys, and is forced into procuring boys for a very powerful and secretive man. The money is good, and the perks are rewarding, and with no guilt, he finds himself living the life he dreamed of.
But an unexpected development with a young boy leads to emotions he's never felt before. When his young friend is endangered, he finds himself on the other side of a child abduction. He must turn his intelligence and abilities to saving a boy, and exacting revenge.
Kharma is a patient creature, and in the end, it will come.
Contains explicit sexual content making it unavailable at Amazon or Smashwords.
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Jay was a geek. With his curly, sandy-blond hair, small, narrow chin, lanky
frame, and large nose, he never fit in with the popular kids. He'd had few
friends, and he'd drifted away from them in middle school when he began to
realize that he was gay.
Now starting college, he was still shy, but was considering coming out. The best he had done so far was to walk past a LGBT meeting. There were cute guys everywhere, teasing him with their attractiveness.
And his roommate was a popular jock, just the kind of guy who made fun of him all his life.
He was expecting college to be torture.
And it was going to be! Just not the kind of torture he was expecting!